Friendship Evolution

It has been almost five years since I left secondary school, 4 years I left Kem Beranang (NS), 3 years I left UTAR and few months more I am leaving UCSI ...



We graduated and parted ways. We went to different colleges with different class times and holidays. Some of my friends have completed their degree and some have even started working.



Due to my busy schedule, when these old friends called me out for a drink or little gathering, I had to reject as I was having final exams or busying with assignments or preparing for assessments. Funny. How my priorities for friends have shifted. No longer do I weigh friendship heavily. In fact, my future is what I focus on now. Sometimes, when I look back to those day, days when all I had to do was hang out with friends, it feels so warm and bitter at the same time. It feels warm because those memories kept me happy and bitter because I realise how fragile friendship is.



Well, it is not that we are not friends anymore, it is the feeling is not the same anymore. You won't go the extra mile just for a friend. Neither would you stay up late just to listen to you friends' chatter anymore. But, maybe you would? I know I still would, but my friends don't need me to play that role anymore because they may stick with their boy/girlfriends or new friends. At this point, we probably have different priorities in life. I've spent most of my time either on my family, my studies or pursuing my life goals ...



Friends ... they are nice to hang out with once in a blue moon: to catch up with and to reminisce about the past, laugh at each other and at ourselves. How silly and carefree we used to be. The feeling is still there but not as intense anymore. Sometimes, I wish to turn back the time but I realised that those days represented one stage in my life. Now, I am at another stage, where we begin to see that this world has so much more to offer, so many things for me to go after and treasure



I simply can't imagine that if I have reformatted my memory hard drive and have no memories of the past. How empty that would be. I know I can never go back to the past but I know no matter how far apart we are, how different we've become, when we come together, we will simply be the friends we've always been.



It is one of the stages in my life.